November 19, 2005

  • Sometimes it is easier to pretend


    Perhaps part of the reason for my silence, for my inability to speak of you as your release date nears, is my fear of what will happen when you return.


    The mask that I share with the world shows excitement, joy, pleasure. And I am all of these things -- I think.


    Yes. I am all of those things.


    Beneath the mask, though, down deep where more is hidden than shown, where I am less the mom and more the realist, I am worried, afraid, apprehensive.


    Will you flourish here?


    On the outside.


    Will you stay here?


    At home.


    Will you learn to take the honest road?


    Even if it is harder.


    Will you still speak of your daughter with awe and respect?


    When she cries all night.


    Will you, son?


    Will you?

Comments (15)

  • Very inspiring. Moms are most important in live because they are the ones who raises the next generation.

  • there'll be hiccups, of course there will.  but you've raised a good son, despite the wayward path he briefly chose, and you'll always be there for him, to guide and love him.  *hugs*

  • hard but truth questions with only time to show the answers

  • I hope only for only the best for you and your family.  Your son will find his way.  It may be a hard path, but he will get there.

  • You are so searingly honest, I can only gasp and agree with you. Though I have no doubt at all that Robert has had his Damascus, that his future will be very different from his past. He's got you, your writing, his daughter. The countdown to release continues... *hugs* ryc: thank you so much xo

  • I pray he will.......

  • The baby is beautiful!! I'm sorry about her loss before..My mom went through the samething..Visit her site sometime..Divine_Devotions...Have a great day and god bless..
    Cyndel

  • Those are all totally understandable feelings- I just hope he does flourish and become all that his daughter needs him to be

  • He'll be fine!  He's a different man now ... not the same boy he was when he made those poor choices.  I have faith in him.  I'm confident that he will grow into a great father; after all, he has wonderful people to model his parenting skills after.  He just needs time, patience, and the support of his family and loved-ones.  Keep thinking positive thoughts!!  :sunny:

  • Thanks for sharing this.

  • Tough questions.  But at least you'll be getting some answers fairly quickly.

  • Reasonable concerns. You have done a wonderful job of being supportive. The rest is up to him.

  • It's his choice now, hopefully trust will be re-learned. ryc: Were you too busy to have any fun?!

  • you have done all you can do...this time he is a DAD...The question he needs to ask himself is 'what kind of parent do I want to be?' He has had a good example set for him. There will be bumps along the way....the stuff life is made of...some people say adversity doesn't build character...it reveals it...He couldn't ask for a better support system....Hang in there MOM

  • I could understand your fears, I am at the very opposite end of the chain with a step-son whom I love facing....  But you know he hasn't done anything very terrible, he is not immoral as much as not in compliance with present laws.  There is every chance he will be able to conform especially with the double love he now has, you and his daughter.  I wish you love and luck

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